One of those days....

Have you ever had one of those days...where the pity party begins at the crack of dawn and lasts until the end of day. I think that today is one of those days. So what's my problem?.... nothing really. I mean of the scale of life this really isn't a major thing. I think that this has just been an emotional week. Friends of ours had a sweet 2 month old baby pass away and I think that has just triggered the contemplating of life . Where am I at? Do I have what it takes during hard times? Am I around those that will help me through times of struggle? Am I happy? Life just seems to do that when death happens. There are some things that I want to change but that are out of my control. There are some days like today where I just wish that I had a maid or fairy godmother that would come in and I could just stay in bed and watch all the shows on TV that I wanted and not have to worry about anything that is even needing to be don, that I could just shut down. I know that things could be worse. I know that in the grand scheme of things that my feelings are not as bad as things going on around me, but for today, I feel like that life is just a little hard to bear.I feel that today is just one of those days where I just feel a little down.Today is one of those days where I just don't want to be doing the busy work, or being all cheery, or any of the other nonsense things. I just want to feel down. I want to be sad. I want to feel unhappy. I just want to ...be. And then tomorrow will be different and things will be better and life will continue to go on. But for today, it just going to be one of those days...